Letting Go

Letting Go

I've been mulling about writing this for such a long time. I know what I want to write but somehow I couldn't bring myself to put these thoughts to writing because I haven't quite yet resolved releasing things to God.

One of the biggest things I have been grappling with in the past 5 years of life has been relationships. To be more specific ... romantic relationships. It's funny but love can be a painful burden to bear especially when the emotions tear you up inside. Being around someone you love instead of being a joy becomes an ache when things aren't going the way you hope it'd go. In a mixed-up world, it is sad to note that loving and caring for someone just isn't enough to win that person's heart. I've experienced it time and time again but yet I still go about it the same way all the time.

Having said all that, my best friends' advice to me has always been to let it go to God. Release it to Him and let the chips fall where they may. My head hears it. My heart knows it. But somehow my emotions don't ... and the more I hang on to my feelings the harder things are. I guess the reason why I'm able to write this right now is because I think I've gotten my head and heart aligned more in recent months. It's way better to be contented and to leave the unknowns to God.

I'm not entirely out of the woods just yet but I guess I can trust the end result to God and one day I'll look back at this season of my life; laugh and be thankful that I've grown through it. In the meantime there are a lot of things to order in my life and a lot more growing up to do now that I've settled down with work, my record label and also the things God has blessed me with at church. I've got everything a young adult would want ... nifty hi-tech toys, a decent car and a condominium but yet all that doesn't mean a thing without someone to share life with. As much as I struggle I know God is telling me this "trust in me, and it'll come to pass". I just gotta keep on trusting and I just learn how to be content and thankful with the blessings that are being poured out into my life at this very moment.

I leave all my readers with this verse that has great meaning to me. Have a read and have a good week ahead of all of ya!

Philippians 4:6-7

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Salt of the Earth

A Sprinkle of Salt

I promised myself just this week that I'd make more of an effort to blog so am gonna write something short today. I was reading Our Daily Bread today and found the following rather amusing yet true. Have a read:

As the “salt of the earth,” Christians can make others thirsty for the Water of Life.

We should realise that all of us are examples in life no matter what our beliefs are. What we say, how we act and what we do reflect who we are on the inside and inevitably influences others to become better people or to just give in and follow norms that may not necessarily be right. The wrong thing does not become right just because everyone is doing it.

The danger about being liberal is that everything is left to opinion and there is no absolute truth While I agree that there are areas of life that are in shades of grey; we still need the blacks & the whites. Without black or white how would we know what's right & what's wrong, what's good & what's bad?

Think about it.

Superheroic Strawberry Milk Splashes

Even Superheroes Drink Milk

Superheros & milk! Who would've thought?! I love the U.S. "Got Milk" ads and according to them my fav superheroes drink milk too! Sure they don't love the strawberry-flavoured delight that I'm into but anything that gets kids drinking milk is really awesome stuff in my opinion. I don't drink milk just cos' it's nutritious, I drink milk cos' I like it!

My mom told me I stopped drinking milk at a young age but I figure that's cos' I never got to taste the delicious taste of strawberry in my bovine-sourced supplement. Then there came along chocolate flavoured milk courtesy of the milk programme that the government sponsored in schools. I drank those but never really got into them. I can't remember when exactly I tasted my first sip of strawberry milk but suffice to say I'm hooked!

A Splash of Pink to Start The Day Off

Mua ha ha ha ha! I love milk and milk definitely loves me back. I love milk in the mornings and I love milk when I need thirst-quencher. Not the plain kinda milk but the sweet flavoured type. Most notably the pink delight that is strawberry milk. I don't care if I get teased by my colleagues, I don't care if people scoff at my love for this deliciously flavoured combo that tickles my taste buds ... I love strawberry milk! Nuff' said.

My Fav Strawberry Delight

Ahhhh ... all that talk of strawberry milk's gotten me thirsty. Time to pop open the fridge and get one of my two models out for a date. Strawberry milk, you gotta love it! *sighs happily*.

In Support Of:

Deep Down Knowing

John 17:25-26
"Righteous Father, though the world does not know You, I know You, and they know that You have sent me. I have made You known to them, and will continue to make You known in order that the love You have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them."

What an awesome, awesome prayer by Jesus for us. I am increasingly growing to understand just how important it is to have a deep, down knowledge of God in my life. Reading the Bible has become more than just finding something I can apply or a promise I can claim but more importantly it's peering beyond the veil and finding out what my Father's heart is.

I struggle with loneliness & acceptance as much as anyone else but as the days go by I am very thankful that I am coming to a deeper knowledge of God's love for me and it is a lot easier to fill that emptiness with God's Presence? How do I know that I am experiencing God? Well, experientially for me there's this sense of calm & peace that just permeates my being as I talk to Him & read the Word every day. There's this sense that He's there and I suppose that's what I mean by having that deep, down knowledge of God.

I remember purposing a long time ago that I'd make this blog something more neutral but I realise that who we are eventually emerges no matter how much we try suppress it. While I love writing about movies, video games & comic books - I end up writing more about faith than anything. Life matters more to me and if my experiences with God can help others, why not write about it?

I'm not all holy, I'm just like any other person in the world and I'm just like any other Christian who struggles to live my life real - pleasing to the One who made me.

Terminate the Enterprise?

The weekend was pretty hectic. Helped out at a Youth Camp on Saturday and Sunday morning. Rushed back to Pee Jay for Star Trek (picked up some Baskin Robbins along the way too) and celebrated my aunt's 70th birthday with my cousins.

Now back to the real purpose of this post. For the first time in a long time I watched 2 movies twice. Caught Terminator: Salvation on Thursday and Friday last week; Star Trek during its opening week and one more time yesterday with my cell members.

Star Trek was so much more AWESOME the 2nd time round and yes Zachary Quinto is great as Spock. Funnily enough in both movies I've found that I liked the supporting characters more. Sure, one might argue that Spock is a central character in his own right but technically Kirk is the hero of Star Trek as is the case in most stories. Sam Worthington's Marcus Wright is a favourite of mine too as opposed to Christian Bale's John Connor in Terminator: Salvation. Supporting characters play a great part in a movie and it's rare these days that the strength of a movie can be placed on just one character. Point to note: one doesn't always have to be the main character to be great in a movie.

Ah life is good in movie land this summer. Star Trek & Terminator: Salvation were both great and I "wonder" just what's Up next?

P.S. If any of you are up to winning some hi-tech gear, there's a blogging and video contest with great prizes that'll reward your creative juices. Check it out here!

Think Different

Fly-thanking Frogs!

I've found that one of the ways to keep pressing on in life is to learn how to be more thankful. It's so easy to take things for granted cos' our eyes are always set on shiny things in life. The odd thing about the human condition is that we never truly appreciate what we have until it's gone. Oddly enough, the grass always seems greener on the other side of the fence.

Deep down inside I suspect we are ungrateful creatures; conditioned by the world to always want something more. It explains why all of us are always looking for something more and we're never truly content. Why? Because always compare ourselves with others and end up wanting what they have too. The quest for the "missing" in life keeps going on & on. Will it ever end?

If you think about it hard enough no matter what your circumstances are or what you're "missing" today; I'm sure there's gotta be more than one good thing in your life now that you can appreciate more. It could be a friend that you have, it could be that PS3 sitting underneath your TV in the living-room; or it could just be something simple like having good health.

Stop. Think hard. Think different. Take a minute to be thankful today. Nuff' said.

But godliness with contentment is great gain.
For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it.

Deadbeat Blogger

A random image off the web!

Strangely enough I don't really have the desire to express myself too much ... I guess being a writer at work I use up my entire quota of words in the office which doesn't leave much for this blog. Ha ha! But I guess it's also because I keep a daily journal (almost!) which does it's job of getting things out of my system.

Why is blogging such a big thing now? I believe that most people blog to express themselves because I think at the heart of it blogging fulfils a very human need to be connected. We all want to be understood by others and we want to feel as if we're not that alone on this blue & green marble of a planet.

Nobody wants to be just one of the crowd. We all want to feel special. Significant. We want our lives to mean something not just to ourselves but to other people too. Human beings are a strange lot in that sense - we want to be significant but yet so often we remain trapped in self-centredness. It takes great effort to look outside of one self really.

Why do I still blog then? I guess it's because I hope that my experiences can help others work out things in their own lives. We do not have to make mistakes to learn from them. Why not learn from the experiences of others and in doing so grow a notch in our own lives? I was having a chat with my colleague Jason about writing and doing something that makes a difference and I've been thinking more seriously about penning down my thoughts properly into a manuscript. I have an idea for a book somewhere inside me and instead of writing disjointedly in this blog I should start on something right now. Shopping around for a publisher can wait ... or perhaps I should just self-publish the book. Ha ha! Would anyone buy it? Hmmm ... maybe, maybe not ... but we've all gotta start somewhere right?

So what does my post today say about my blogging style? I'm a functional blogger ... I don't blog to express myself anymore ... I think I blog because I wanna share something important to others about life. And I that's what my book will be about really ... life. It'll be a book with pretty pictures too I hope ... ha ha. I read nothing but comic books these days and find it uber difficult to finish a text-filled tome lately.

Anyways, till next time. Vaya cond dios amigos.

FFXIII and More ...

Lightning - The Heroine in the Upcoming Final Fantasy

I have to admit there's nothing much to play on the PS3 right now. In terms of RPGs there's practically zilch in the market. But I guess being older now & more responsible there's tonnes to do elsewhere in my life (have I grown up?).

There's church & cell. There's learning more about God and my faith. Work. And of course the relationships and friendships in my life. Life is full but there are days ... but that's another story-lah.

I just spent an hour or so watching a play through of the Final Fantasy XIII demo that just got released as part of the Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children Complete Blu-Ray disc. The game looks really good visually but gameplay-wise it looks very much like any RPG that Square has released in the past but being a Final Fantasy fan I'm probably gonna get it anyways. The franchise is one of the reasons why I picked up a PS3 in the first place (and Metal Gear Solid 4 too!).

The Titular White Knight in White Knight Chronicles

Sadly, the RPG landscape is bleak on Sony's platform ... sigh. White Knight Chronicles is the only epic title that's close to release. Thankfully I have Disgaea 3: Absence of Justice to fill the gap for now. I have a host of backlogged games on the Wii too actually and I guess it's time I spend some time on them to relax some on the weekends.

Disgaea 3: Absence of Justice

Honestly I don't feel that compelled to play too much video games. People-time and listening to sermons seem to have more appeal to me these days. I'm especially ministered by Ps Edmund Chan's sermons of late (am listening to a series on 1 Corinthians right now) and am learning to see the bigger picture of God in the Bible. Plus I need to go through the Gospels to discover something really important that is key to resolving some of the questions that I have about my faith.

So much to do ... and I guess video games are just another part of life that make me me. The question remains though ... what is important in life? The stuff that is on God's heart or the many other different things in life? That's something to think more about isn't it? There's still so much to learn about faith and it does get very challenging at time. I guess this is what it means to work out my faith (does anyone know where it says this in the Bible?).

Till next time. Vaya con dios amigos!

Burberry The Beat, Anyone?

A friend of mine asked for help to just spread the word about this. Anyone interested? Some fame and fragrance perhaps? Prizes for the winners who perform at the final showcase get loads of fragrances ... you'll be smelling great for a long, long time!

• 1st prize - RM3,000 worth of Burberry fragrance
• 2nd prize - RM2,000 worth of Burberry fragrance
• 3rd prize - RM1,000 worth of Burberry fragrance

Mornings

Breakfast for Your Soul

What's the first thing on your mind when you get up in the morning?

I get up each morning usually with the things that are on my heart. The things that matter. Whether it's work or that special someone. Stuff like that ... and I think I've learnt by God's grace to always run to Him the moment I open my eyes when I wake up.

My mornings are special and my day is never complete unless I spend a good half-an-hour or so quietening down and just basking in the Presence of the Father. My day goes off tangent usually if I don't have that sliver of precious time to talk to Him about the stuff that I'm struggling with and now more than ever I'm learning how to listen rather than to just blab my mouth off.

I guess the point I'm trying to make this morning is for you (the reader) to take a moment and to spend a bit of time with God today! I know not everyone who reads my posts are Christian but that doesn't mean you can't talk to God right because you can!

Anyways, I'd love to hear about how some of you spend your mornings or how you start the day off. So drop me a line right here on Multiply or drop me a comment on my oft unmaintained blog at http://surfgod.blogspot.com (I know, I know ... Multiply requires you to sign-up to comment and stuff which is a bummer).

Here's a short verse that I wrote this morning that sorta summarises my mornings.

Mornings
My mornings are times spent with Him
My mornings give me the strength to run life's race each day
My mornings remind me to walk the narrow way
My mornings keep me centred on Yahweh Elohim

Twitter-ed

Are You Twittered Today?

I'm addicted to Twitter. Been hearing a lot about Twitter ever since I've been monitoring tech news for the WAP site that I update. After months of reading about Twitter I finally caved and signed up for an account 2 weeks ago on my HTC Touch Pro whilst I was out for lunch with my brother.

Since then I've installed the TwitterFox plug-in on Firefox both on my Macbook and on my Dell Vostro at work. And just this week I installed TweetDeck Beta on both machines as well. I don't know why it's so addictive to follow others and to have others follow you on Twitter but it just is. The Twitter phenomenon has even extended to celebritydom with Ashton Kutcher challenging CNN in a race to reach 1 million followers on Twitter. Incidentally he won ... isn't it weird what a 140-character limited app can do?

The Adobe AIR-powered TweeterDeck Beta

It's a strange social-networking phenomenon but oh so many love it including yours truly. I've also installed a Tweeter app on Facebook that automatically updates my Facebook status. How cool is that? I wonder how long this fad will last for me? Is Twitter the next big thing or is it just a passing phase on the World Wide Web?

Only time will tell ... for now it's just FUN to Twitter. Follow me ... http://www.twitter.com/chrisleow

A Measure

Just a Measure

Ephesians 3:17-19
And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

God's POV

God's View is Bigger!

I've been listening a lot to Ps. Edmund Chan in the past month and it's been refreshing to just listen to the Word of God and to be centred on Him. I can't say that I'm like 100% there yet and there's still a lot of work that He needs to do in me to transform me.

It's been a great weekend and I learnt some new things at yesterday's Discipleship Conference in church. The key thing that I took away from Ps. Edmund Chan's session is understanding more and accepting that God's Word transforms us and "masters" us rather than us mastering the Word of God. Truth without application doesn't do a thing but truth applied makes a world of difference.

How often have I read the Bible with pre-suppositions and with ideas already in place? It's difficult I know but maybe it's time for us to just read the Bible for what it has to teach us rather than trying to force-fit the Word to fit our ideas of what things should be like. I figure that's probably why we struggle so much to find truth in the Bible because in actual fact we're trying to validate our own truth rather learning what truth really is.

I'm learning how to see God's point of view rather than justaxposing my pre-concieved ideas on the Word. It's gonna be an exciting journey and even though I do have many questions about the world and the relevance of the Word in it; I believe that a God-centred approach in discovering Him in the Bible is going to make a world of difference in life.

Won't you read the Word differently today?

Hope in Fiction

The Dark Knight ... Of Course

Just this morning as I cleared the hall in my apartment a little I had the Special Features disc playing from the Dark Knight and something hit me. Life is rife with challenges and I figured out this morning that movies, games and books inspire me to do better; to be better. There is a unrealised need in the world today for fiction to not just entertain but to teach us how to be better. We don't necessarily need to just read autobiographies but I believe that good fiction that's meant to inspire can do good.

There is a line to be drawn though because fiction can be escapicism. I used to get lost in things like this years ago but now that I'm older I realise that I can take what I learn into the real world. What is fiction if it just stays on the pages of a script or book? What's the point of writing if the themes and thoughts of the author are just merely to entertain? Entertainment can be more than that I believe. In fiction we can find hope to continue to press in our challenges in real life. Through fiction we can put shape to our thoughts, emotions & feelings that better help us understand who we are as people.

Value & Acceptance

Are You Alone in The Crowd?

I know I haven't blogged in awhile ... I guess I'm learning to shut up more instead of expressing what's going on inside my head & heart. It doesn't seem to make sense these days to wear my heart out on my sleeves but here's one of the rare posts that I will be making based on what's happening in my life right now.

2009 is starting out to be pretty busy. There's a tonne to do at work. Some clearing up of audit stuff for the record label PLUS there's a bit of an evolution happening at cell. Got hit by a few hard hits over the weekend but I'm surviving. Something feels different inside and I guess I'm sad to have temporarily lost a friendship that's been blessing to me for the past year. Life "happens". As always.

Here's something I learned today as I was counseling a friend which turned out to be a big revelation to me too. I'll sum it up below:

"We only get hurt by people because of the value we place on our friendship with them. The truth is not everyone values us the same way and perhaps we shouldn't value them as much in terms of taking to heart what they say. Not everyone knows us through and through and we end up getting unnecessarily hurt by these people."

I guess what I'm trying to say is that we get hurt sometimes becomes of how much we value certain people. Some people just don't value our friendship as much and sadly they don't take the effort or time to get to know us well enough. Actions & comments are made loosely and that's when we get hurt. The worse part is people who don't appreciate us enough and we end up feeling rejected.

I'm still figuring it out but I am learning that we don't need to be accepted by everyone. It's the acceptance of the ones who take the time to see beyond the external that should matter most. It hurts a whole lot when much is given to a person but nothing is given back in return. It cuts deep when a person refuses to break out of their own mindsets about us. It kills us when we are misjudged and presumptions made based on false impressions. Not many truly bother to see beyond what is on the outside. Not many are able to. After all don't we all judge a book by its cover most times? Some of you would say no ... but I would challenge you to ask yourself that question again and think real hard about it because you'll find that you won't like the answer that surfaces within.

The point I'm trying to make is this ... I'm learning for myself that we can only give someone love & care only if that person allows it. We can only give as much as the person wants to receive; beyond that it's very difficult to touch a person's heart if that person is closed off. Isn't it sad that we are able to close ourselves off to love because we have far-flung expectations? We don't truly appreciate the choices that are presented before us because we're always looking far far away for better options or choices; not realising that the best options are already there in front of us.

Maybe at the end of the day it's about us accepting ourselves first before others can accept us. Maybe the value of our relationships start with the value we place on ourselves? We put far too much value on what other people think of us but the fact is that no one can truly know what's inside us except us & God. So why do we put so much stock on what others say about us? Is that the reason why we end up getting hurt & disappointed? Now that's a thought for us to chew on ...

I don't really know what I'm trying say in this post; maybe some of you have insights that would evolve or change my view on this but I think I'm close to the mark on this. I'm still sorting my own thoughts though so don't take what I have to say today as the Gospel truth. Anyways, give all this a thought; hopefully some of you would make better sense of what I've been mulling on. I'd love to hear your own insights on this matter.

Till next time.

Losing Control

Turbulence ...

When it rains it pours. It has been a rough few months and many things have happened. I've seen people passing on. I've seen sickness. I've experienced unreciprocated love. I've seen pain. I've felt pain. Life. Life just happened.

If anything, I'm learning more and more each day how to quiet down whenever I'm faced by overwhelming emotions and circumstances. To spend a couple of minutes to cast all my cares an anxiety on The One who is able. Some may call it weakness. Some call it foolishness. Hey ... sometimes I wonder what it is but stiil I choose to believe. And that belief is faith. Go look it up.

We believe we have control of things in our lives but I beg to differ. No matter how much we think we have control, there are a good many things that can go out of control. We can put blood, sweat & tears into our work but at the end of the day all it takes is a bad day for a client or even a minor overlooking of things to throw things out of whack. You can love someone with your whole heart but yet have no guarantee that that person will love you back. You can exercise and eat well but for all you know a genetic defect that comes from generations of you family could set your health back without you even knowing.

Control. It is an illusion. We think we have control in a world that is spinning out of control. There are far too many things out there ... far too many things where there is no control. I suppose that's why I am comforted by the knowledge that I don't need to be in control. That I can trust every situation to Him. I know ... things may not end up the way I would want it to be but the knowledge that He wants what's best for me helps me trust Him some. In time to come I hope to trust Him more. Because in the end there is always Hope. If not now. In time to come.

Here's a lil' somethin' from the Bible that all this struggle we go through is temporary; that there is hope and that in the end all things are made new.

Revelation 21:4
He will wipe every tear from their eyes.
There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain,
for the old order of things has passed away.

He that Carries Our Burdens

Calvary

Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7

Jesus at Calvary.

Not a picture we'd like to remember but one that reminds us that we can cast all our cares on Him. A lot of things are happening right now in my life and I am so thankful that I was given 1 Peter 5:7 this morning. I just felt that the verse was something that I should share with all of you who may be feeling overwhelmed. I hope it speaks volumes to you as it does to me today.

Take care...

Busy as a Bee

Small Bee, Big Flower

Oowah! I've been up today since 5-something AM. Started the day off talking to God a lot. It's been a rough few weeks but isn't that how life is? We are all just small bees and life at times can be like the above. We can be faced by the big flower that is life which is beautiful & full of colour and yet still miss out on enjoying it.

Humans are strange creatures indeed. It's always never enough. The cup is almost always half empty and never full. The problem with most of us (I think) is that we can't see the big picture most times because we're too caught up to realise that we are thoroughly blessed by what we already have. We're always looking away instead of looking at what is already close by. Go figure.

It's a learning to process and I think I'm doing a lot better lately at taking steps back to see the big picture. I am learning too how to appreciate what I am blessed with already. So that's a good thing. It's always a good thing to be contented. The Bible says that godliness & contentment is great gain. I suppose that means that having a deeper relationship with God somehow goes hand in hand with being contented in life. I'm beginning to see how true that is in my own life.

Right now I'm really exhausted, physically & mentally. Even though I can still see the big picture it's somewhat tough going with so many things fighting for my attention. Life. It sure is one BIG flower isn't it?

Anyways, I was just looking in the mirror this morning and I can see the wear & tear on my face ... I've never looked this tired before. It's a sure sign that I need some extended time off. Soon. Or it'd be bad. Real bad. Ha ha ...

Anyone up for a holiday some time soon?

Faith

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

I read a powerful thing in today's devotional reading that resonated deep within me about having faith in God so here's an excerpt that I want to share with everyone.

"It comes therefore as a shock that these two spheres of human uncertainty (the future and the unseen) are precisely those in which faith specialises and even flourishes! It is the function of faith to apprehend both the unseen present and the unrealised future. Put simply, faith is the assurance that the future we anticipate will take place and the present we cannot se is nevertheless real."

Through The Bible Through The Year
John Stott

And further on he writes:

"Faith is not a synonym for credulity or superstition. It is neither irrational nor illogical. No, faith and reason are never placed in antithesis to one another in Scripture. Faith and sight are contrasted, but not faith and reason. On the contrary, 'Those who know Your Name put their trust in You'. They trust because they know. The reasonableness of trust arises from the trustworthiness of its object, and nobody is more trustworthy than God."

Through The Bible Through The Year
John Stott

Thank YOU everyone for praying! My uncle is improving tremendously day by day and I received the truly awesome news that he accepted Jesus as my Aunt Julia has been sharing with him as she helps take care of him. Another one of my aunts is already mid-flight and will be landing in Singapore tomorrow morning. It's a gruelling 30-hour flight for her as she comes all the way from Boston and I'm awed by all the care & love that I am seeing in my family in this difficult time. Family & love are definitely blessings from the One Above.

It's gonna be a tough two weeks of work as we have a very tight deadline for an upcoming project. Lots to do but I know that I have God to sustain me. He has been with me all this while and I know that He will never leave me nor forsake me.

On another note ... Altered Frequency is all done with their new album Transit. Look out for it very, very soon. I've got a preview copy and I'm loving it ... all of us are working hard to do all the necessary to reproduce the album now so it's one final stretch before you'll see it in stores.

Check back soon for more news!

My Uncle Teong

It's been a difficult year. First Connor. Now my Uncle Teong is in ICU. He had two heart attacks this week and my whole family is down in Johore now. The first a mild one on Monday and then the 2nd and more severe one somewhere in the middle of the week.

Seeing him was sad and they are much more stricter here. I held his hand for a bit and as I think about it now I just didn't know what to say to him. It was difficult enough seeing Connor through his battle and now this.

I don't know what to pray for ... part of me prays for healing and wholeness but after losing Connor I just don't know anymore. I suddenly realise now that I do not have any pictures of him at all ... only memories of him in my head.

To everyone of you who reads this ... Do cover my uncle in prayer. I asked God if He would reveal Himself to Uncle Teong at the very least. Could you guys please pray with me on that? And also for him to pull through ... so much of me wants to see him pull through.