Letting Go
I've been mulling about writing this for such a long time. I know what I want to write but somehow I couldn't bring myself to put these thoughts to writing because I haven't quite yet resolved releasing things to God.
One of the biggest things I have been grappling with in the past 5 years of life has been relationships. To be more specific ... romantic relationships. It's funny but love can be a painful burden to bear especially when the emotions tear you up inside. Being around someone you love instead of being a joy becomes an ache when things aren't going the way you hope it'd go. In a mixed-up world, it is sad to note that loving and caring for someone just isn't enough to win that person's heart. I've experienced it time and time again but yet I still go about it the same way all the time.
Having said all that, my best friends' advice to me has always been to let it go to God. Release it to Him and let the chips fall where they may. My head hears it. My heart knows it. But somehow my emotions don't ... and the more I hang on to my feelings the harder things are. I guess the reason why I'm able to write this right now is because I think I've gotten my head and heart aligned more in recent months. It's way better to be contented and to leave the unknowns to God.
I'm not entirely out of the woods just yet but I guess I can trust the end result to God and one day I'll look back at this season of my life; laugh and be thankful that I've grown through it. In the meantime there are a lot of things to order in my life and a lot more growing up to do now that I've settled down with work, my record label and also the things God has blessed me with at church. I've got everything a young adult would want ... nifty hi-tech toys, a decent car and a condominium but yet all that doesn't mean a thing without someone to share life with. As much as I struggle I know God is telling me this "trust in me, and it'll come to pass". I just gotta keep on trusting and I just learn how to be content and thankful with the blessings that are being poured out into my life at this very moment.
I leave all my readers with this verse that has great meaning to me. Have a read and have a good week ahead of all of ya!
Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
