Talking Without Speaking, Hearing But Not Listening
Do you say the words but not mean it and mean it but not say the words?
Do you hear the words but not really listen to the heart in it?
Do we not want to be understood but we fail to understand?
Deep huh? Well not really that deep but just something that came up while I was making my daily trip back to Setapak last Friday. Give it a thought.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
Monday, December 13, 2004
Gears of Solid Metal!
Ah ... where do I begin with this excellent game by Hideo Kojima? For those unfamiliar with the series, Metal Gear focuses very much on stealth and was the first of its kind. It inspired the birth of a whole new genre in gaming with an emphasis on not sneaking through levels instead of running, gunning and mowing down hordes of enemies.
But then I digress. I had a blast playing Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater. It’s arguably the best installment in the series. The game play mechanics are uniquely Metal Gear and it becomes second nature once you’re used to it. You’ll probably be sneaking around like a pro in an hour or two but then again I’ve played Metal Gear games before so I’m already acquainted with the control scheme.
The graphics are superb and it’s a joy to see the wilds of a jungle come to life on your TV screen. What’s more the cinematic sequences are incredibly well done with a music score by Harry Gregson Williams that’s just oozing with movie magic goodness. If more games are made this way it’d be the best marriage between gaming and movies. Sure the dialogue can be campy and corny at times but I think that’s done on purpose as Metal Gear makes it a point never to take itself too seriously.
Hideo Kojima always has a social/political message in his games and this one is no different. Fortunately the message isn’t as preachy this time round which made the game a whole lot more enjoyable. It is the tour de force gaming experience that you shouldn’t miss on the PS2. What’s more it’s highly re-playable and very addictive. It even made me crack out my copy of Metal Gear Solid 2 for a re-play and when I get back my copy of Metal Gear Solid: The Twin Snakes for my GameCube I’ll probably have another go at that one.
This game gets a most worthy 10 out of 10. Check it out at the nearest video game stall near you.
Fun Factor: 10 out of 10
Addictiveness: 10 out of 10
Graphics: 10 out of 10
Overall Grade: 10 out of 10
Ah ... where do I begin with this excellent game by Hideo Kojima? For those unfamiliar with the series, Metal Gear focuses very much on stealth and was the first of its kind. It inspired the birth of a whole new genre in gaming with an emphasis on not sneaking through levels instead of running, gunning and mowing down hordes of enemies.
But then I digress. I had a blast playing Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater. It’s arguably the best installment in the series. The game play mechanics are uniquely Metal Gear and it becomes second nature once you’re used to it. You’ll probably be sneaking around like a pro in an hour or two but then again I’ve played Metal Gear games before so I’m already acquainted with the control scheme.
The graphics are superb and it’s a joy to see the wilds of a jungle come to life on your TV screen. What’s more the cinematic sequences are incredibly well done with a music score by Harry Gregson Williams that’s just oozing with movie magic goodness. If more games are made this way it’d be the best marriage between gaming and movies. Sure the dialogue can be campy and corny at times but I think that’s done on purpose as Metal Gear makes it a point never to take itself too seriously.
Hideo Kojima always has a social/political message in his games and this one is no different. Fortunately the message isn’t as preachy this time round which made the game a whole lot more enjoyable. It is the tour de force gaming experience that you shouldn’t miss on the PS2. What’s more it’s highly re-playable and very addictive. It even made me crack out my copy of Metal Gear Solid 2 for a re-play and when I get back my copy of Metal Gear Solid: The Twin Snakes for my GameCube I’ll probably have another go at that one.
This game gets a most worthy 10 out of 10. Check it out at the nearest video game stall near you.
Fun Factor: 10 out of 10
Addictiveness: 10 out of 10
Graphics: 10 out of 10
Overall Grade: 10 out of 10
Sunday, December 05, 2004
These Are The Days
We've come to the final day of our Chinese serial-like production in church. 3 months of hard work are now coming to an end. As usual it feels like a part of my life would be over with the end of the play. In every single production I've been in I've faced all kinds of different struggles; some with self and some with fellow production crew members. Suffice to say doing something we believe in always requires struggle and I guess that's why I do the things I do.
I've been ploughing through games like crazy just to get my mind off things for the past 2 months or so at the expense of sleep. I've finished a massive amount of games since the Deepavali/Raya break. Conquered Star Ocean III, Metroid: Prime and last week I finshed Metal Gear Solid 3. I've just started on Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door and Pikmin 2 now. Nintendo makes the cutest games and gameplay-wise I'd definitely have to say that they unique. It can get tiring to play dark edgy games that border on the cinematic. After 2 and a half days of Metal Gear's cinematic gameplay I'd say it is a nice change indeed to play a game that's more like a game rather than a digital movie.
It's already 4:45pm now and I'll write more about this tomorrow maybe.
Ta.
We've come to the final day of our Chinese serial-like production in church. 3 months of hard work are now coming to an end. As usual it feels like a part of my life would be over with the end of the play. In every single production I've been in I've faced all kinds of different struggles; some with self and some with fellow production crew members. Suffice to say doing something we believe in always requires struggle and I guess that's why I do the things I do.
I've been ploughing through games like crazy just to get my mind off things for the past 2 months or so at the expense of sleep. I've finished a massive amount of games since the Deepavali/Raya break. Conquered Star Ocean III, Metroid: Prime and last week I finshed Metal Gear Solid 3. I've just started on Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door and Pikmin 2 now. Nintendo makes the cutest games and gameplay-wise I'd definitely have to say that they unique. It can get tiring to play dark edgy games that border on the cinematic. After 2 and a half days of Metal Gear's cinematic gameplay I'd say it is a nice change indeed to play a game that's more like a game rather than a digital movie.
It's already 4:45pm now and I'll write more about this tomorrow maybe.
Ta.
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
What Gaming Can Teach You About Life
When I was younger, I used to be a very cautious gamer. I saved my progress frequently every step of the way in any one of my digital adventures. Moving ever slowly but surely towards the end-game. That was the old me.
In recent years, I've gotten "braver" so to speak. I venture forward in levels without saving at times (with the exception of CRPGs) and I plough through games much quicker now. What has this taught me about life you ask? Well I've noticed that I'm more open to trying out new things and it doesn't quite seem so scary to experiment with new things in life.
So that's where I am at now in life. Trying out new things to figure out my place here on this small celestial sphere floating in the outer space. It's an adventure but this time in real-life and not virtual. And that my friends is a lil' bit of how gaming has taught me to live life a little more (that and my 7 months of bumming around).
I can't wait to go back home tonight to finish off the final boss in Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater.
Later!
When I was younger, I used to be a very cautious gamer. I saved my progress frequently every step of the way in any one of my digital adventures. Moving ever slowly but surely towards the end-game. That was the old me.
In recent years, I've gotten "braver" so to speak. I venture forward in levels without saving at times (with the exception of CRPGs) and I plough through games much quicker now. What has this taught me about life you ask? Well I've noticed that I'm more open to trying out new things and it doesn't quite seem so scary to experiment with new things in life.
So that's where I am at now in life. Trying out new things to figure out my place here on this small celestial sphere floating in the outer space. It's an adventure but this time in real-life and not virtual. And that my friends is a lil' bit of how gaming has taught me to live life a little more (that and my 7 months of bumming around).
I can't wait to go back home tonight to finish off the final boss in Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater.
Later!
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Mindless Action?
I've been playing quite a fair bit of Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas; IMHO the greatest open-ended gaming experience available now on consoles. The game world itself is huge and mirrors 3 cities in the US of A. I've spent hours wandering around the first city of Las Santos and have yet to explore every single location. You've gotta see it to believe.
Of course that's not that the point of today's BLOG. After hours of playing San Andreas and hearing the characters mouth 4-letter expletives, I realise that it's affecting me tremendously. I'm not one to use expletives that much (although I do realise that I am pretty casual with words like s**t, damn & crap at times) but after hours of immersion in the game I realise that expletives seem to come readily to my mind and I'm not talking about the good-natured kind. This goes to show that games (and other forms of media) do have a huge impact on the mind and I wonder if parents really know that kids are exposed to stuff like that in something like a video game. If it can affect an adult like me (yeah, yeah I'm still childish in some ways but I am still a thinking adult nevertheless) then imagine the effect it'll have on a kid playing the exact same thing?
The Bible says this in Proverbs 4:23 which says this "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life". How so very true. What goes in has to go somewhere right? And guarding my heart does not just mean guarding what I love but also what goes into my mind. Being human is mind, body & soul so I take guarding my heart to also mean guarding my mind. The concept isn't hard to grasp, it's just hard to do. I enjoy all kinds of stuff that potentially may have an effect on me and truthfully I wouldn't really want to let of these things. It's a struggle really because I don't know how much of all these things make me ME and how much of it is worldly influence. I don't believe in separatism between so called "sprituality" and "worldliness" cos' whether we like it or not we ARE living in the world; not disembodied souls wandering the Earth. I dunno ... perhaps over time I'll change but I doubt God really wants to make me not ME; it's just that which parts are the real me and which are not? Puzzling isn't it?
Just my 2 cents worth after not making any posts for almost 2 weeks. Hey! I managed to write about my faith & video games in the same post. Ha ha ha ha ha! I'm a GENIUS! NOT!!!
Das Vedanya Komrades!
I've been playing quite a fair bit of Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas; IMHO the greatest open-ended gaming experience available now on consoles. The game world itself is huge and mirrors 3 cities in the US of A. I've spent hours wandering around the first city of Las Santos and have yet to explore every single location. You've gotta see it to believe.
Of course that's not that the point of today's BLOG. After hours of playing San Andreas and hearing the characters mouth 4-letter expletives, I realise that it's affecting me tremendously. I'm not one to use expletives that much (although I do realise that I am pretty casual with words like s**t, damn & crap at times) but after hours of immersion in the game I realise that expletives seem to come readily to my mind and I'm not talking about the good-natured kind. This goes to show that games (and other forms of media) do have a huge impact on the mind and I wonder if parents really know that kids are exposed to stuff like that in something like a video game. If it can affect an adult like me (yeah, yeah I'm still childish in some ways but I am still a thinking adult nevertheless) then imagine the effect it'll have on a kid playing the exact same thing?
The Bible says this in Proverbs 4:23 which says this "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life". How so very true. What goes in has to go somewhere right? And guarding my heart does not just mean guarding what I love but also what goes into my mind. Being human is mind, body & soul so I take guarding my heart to also mean guarding my mind. The concept isn't hard to grasp, it's just hard to do. I enjoy all kinds of stuff that potentially may have an effect on me and truthfully I wouldn't really want to let of these things. It's a struggle really because I don't know how much of all these things make me ME and how much of it is worldly influence. I don't believe in separatism between so called "sprituality" and "worldliness" cos' whether we like it or not we ARE living in the world; not disembodied souls wandering the Earth. I dunno ... perhaps over time I'll change but I doubt God really wants to make me not ME; it's just that which parts are the real me and which are not? Puzzling isn't it?
Just my 2 cents worth after not making any posts for almost 2 weeks. Hey! I managed to write about my faith & video games in the same post. Ha ha ha ha ha! I'm a GENIUS! NOT!!!
Das Vedanya Komrades!
Monday, November 01, 2004
Are We Meant For Greater Things?
There is something about destiny that captures our imagination. Everything from movies to games depict life in a grander scale. It explains why some of us enjoy these things so much. Normal everyday life in retrospect is boring & most times stale. After all how many of us lead lives that are exciting and filled with adventure like the characters we see portrayed in the latest Star Wars flick for example.
The search for meaning in life is prevalent in every form of media. Most forms of media have the central theme of wanting something more out of life. A young farm boy at the edge of the galaxy dreams of being a Jedi Knight. A man convicted of the murder of his wife & lover dreams of freedom and escape. A reporter ever searches for that big scoop and finds herself embroiled in the schemes of a mad doctor bent on destroying the world. That's just the movies mind you. Look into books, comics and video games - you'll find that this same theme exists. What is it about destiny that so enthralls us? Are we meant for greater things on this small blue planet that sits 2 planets away from the sun?
I'd like to believe that we are meant for greater things. Our existense here on earth cannot be something more than a fluke of chance. A random sperm fertilization that caused us to be created in the wombs of our mothers. Don't all of us have this deep sense of destiny? But as life goes by we let LIFE itself quell it. We blind ourselves with cars, the latest gadgets and perhaps that latest fling we've just had; not realising that our lives are being wasted. I for one don't want to fall in that rut. If like me you believe in a God then don't you think that He has a purpose for us here on Earth? It feels at times like this purpose is elusive; as if God means for us to seek it out in the deep recesses of our psyche. Like Dr. Henry Jones Jr. we go on a quest to search out that ancient relic in the catacombs of our souls.
I don't know about you but I know I'd want to discover MY purpose in life. I'm still figuring it out and deep down I know that the journey is part of the process. Give this a thought today. Do you know what your purpose on life is? Are you willing to make some personal sacrifices to find that out?
Carpe Diem.
There is something about destiny that captures our imagination. Everything from movies to games depict life in a grander scale. It explains why some of us enjoy these things so much. Normal everyday life in retrospect is boring & most times stale. After all how many of us lead lives that are exciting and filled with adventure like the characters we see portrayed in the latest Star Wars flick for example.
The search for meaning in life is prevalent in every form of media. Most forms of media have the central theme of wanting something more out of life. A young farm boy at the edge of the galaxy dreams of being a Jedi Knight. A man convicted of the murder of his wife & lover dreams of freedom and escape. A reporter ever searches for that big scoop and finds herself embroiled in the schemes of a mad doctor bent on destroying the world. That's just the movies mind you. Look into books, comics and video games - you'll find that this same theme exists. What is it about destiny that so enthralls us? Are we meant for greater things on this small blue planet that sits 2 planets away from the sun?
I'd like to believe that we are meant for greater things. Our existense here on earth cannot be something more than a fluke of chance. A random sperm fertilization that caused us to be created in the wombs of our mothers. Don't all of us have this deep sense of destiny? But as life goes by we let LIFE itself quell it. We blind ourselves with cars, the latest gadgets and perhaps that latest fling we've just had; not realising that our lives are being wasted. I for one don't want to fall in that rut. If like me you believe in a God then don't you think that He has a purpose for us here on Earth? It feels at times like this purpose is elusive; as if God means for us to seek it out in the deep recesses of our psyche. Like Dr. Henry Jones Jr. we go on a quest to search out that ancient relic in the catacombs of our souls.
I don't know about you but I know I'd want to discover MY purpose in life. I'm still figuring it out and deep down I know that the journey is part of the process. Give this a thought today. Do you know what your purpose on life is? Are you willing to make some personal sacrifices to find that out?
Carpe Diem.
Friday, October 29, 2004
I Feel Funny in My Tummy
It ain't funny when you it's all runny in your tummy. It must have been lunch because I was perfectly OK this morning. I had lunch at the mamak opposite my office today before steppin' in for work. In the past 2 hours I've heeded the call of nature twice. TWICE!
This week has been a troubling one. The Christmas production really has been taking a toll on me. All the disagreements I've been having with my buhd has got me feeling somewhat blue. Working with my best buhd on the production has not been easy. Sigh ... but I'm glad we've sorta resolved things last night during the production meeting.
On a lighter note, "The Incredibles" are hitting the big screens soon! Superheroes the Pixar Way! Now that'd be a sight to see. The trailers look good and expectations are running high. Perhaps I could catch it this weekend, hmmm? But would I have the time? Sunday can be pretty much ruled out due to the video shoot, I guess that leaves Saturday. Heh heh. But knowin' me I'll probably be too lazy to leave Setapak tomorrow.
Looks like it's gonna be a weekend chock full of production goodness spilling over into Monday too!
It ain't funny when you it's all runny in your tummy. It must have been lunch because I was perfectly OK this morning. I had lunch at the mamak opposite my office today before steppin' in for work. In the past 2 hours I've heeded the call of nature twice. TWICE!
This week has been a troubling one. The Christmas production really has been taking a toll on me. All the disagreements I've been having with my buhd has got me feeling somewhat blue. Working with my best buhd on the production has not been easy. Sigh ... but I'm glad we've sorta resolved things last night during the production meeting.
On a lighter note, "The Incredibles" are hitting the big screens soon! Superheroes the Pixar Way! Now that'd be a sight to see. The trailers look good and expectations are running high. Perhaps I could catch it this weekend, hmmm? But would I have the time? Sunday can be pretty much ruled out due to the video shoot, I guess that leaves Saturday. Heh heh. But knowin' me I'll probably be too lazy to leave Setapak tomorrow.
Looks like it's gonna be a weekend chock full of production goodness spilling over into Monday too!
Monday, October 25, 2004
Mon-keys in the Zoo!
I had the pleasure of experiencing the true face of Malaysian youth in the wee hours of the morning on this not too pleasant Monday. I awoke to the sound of cat calls and hoots of the students who live in my condo. It was close to 1:30am and they were firing off fireworks, screaming and shouting. Noise emanated from every corner of each block and I couldn't help but think that Malaysian Youth are an unruly bunch. There was no electricity in the area and the students passed the time by making noise. A noisier troop of monkeys you'd be hard pressed to find. I'd bet the monkeys in Zoo Negara are a whole lot quieter. Do you think our country has hope with a generation of monkeys in our institutions of higher learning now? Brrr ... the thought just gives me the willies.
Since I couldn't sleep due to the heat & noise I sat out in the balcony with my housemate Timmy and we played guitar till the electricity came back on at around 3:00am. Since we couldn't sleep anymore after that I switched on the PS2 and continued my adventures in StarOcean III. Spent most of the time levelling up and killing robotic adversaries again & again & again! I must say that the game is starting to grow on me especially now that Fayt is causing 6,000 hit-point damage with every long-distance strike he makes. Plus I now have a healer in the party that can resurrect & heal the fallen. The combat leaves a lot to be desired though due to the inane battle-system that the developers put into place.
Today has been an exceptionally quiet day. Played lots of StarOcean in the morning. Wrote some copy for 2 Maxis jobs from Mantra & spent quite a fair bit of time organizing things for the Christmas production in the afternoon. Aaah ... this is my kind of day. Rehearsals for the stage bits start this Sunday at 2:00pm. I'm not truly looking forward to it for some reason - I've been feeling lethargic of late and I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. I feel like Bilbo Baggins in Fellowship of the Ring; like butter spread on too much bread. Bilbo, I don't know what you meant by that but I certainly feel like it. Too little butter on too much bread.
The disturbance in my sleep pattern last night is causing me to be slightly woozy. On the other hand it could also be caused the 1 and a half hour nap I took this afternoon to replace the lost hours of sleep last night. Oh well ... dinner with my family coming right up.
Ta!
I had the pleasure of experiencing the true face of Malaysian youth in the wee hours of the morning on this not too pleasant Monday. I awoke to the sound of cat calls and hoots of the students who live in my condo. It was close to 1:30am and they were firing off fireworks, screaming and shouting. Noise emanated from every corner of each block and I couldn't help but think that Malaysian Youth are an unruly bunch. There was no electricity in the area and the students passed the time by making noise. A noisier troop of monkeys you'd be hard pressed to find. I'd bet the monkeys in Zoo Negara are a whole lot quieter. Do you think our country has hope with a generation of monkeys in our institutions of higher learning now? Brrr ... the thought just gives me the willies.
Since I couldn't sleep due to the heat & noise I sat out in the balcony with my housemate Timmy and we played guitar till the electricity came back on at around 3:00am. Since we couldn't sleep anymore after that I switched on the PS2 and continued my adventures in StarOcean III. Spent most of the time levelling up and killing robotic adversaries again & again & again! I must say that the game is starting to grow on me especially now that Fayt is causing 6,000 hit-point damage with every long-distance strike he makes. Plus I now have a healer in the party that can resurrect & heal the fallen. The combat leaves a lot to be desired though due to the inane battle-system that the developers put into place.
Today has been an exceptionally quiet day. Played lots of StarOcean in the morning. Wrote some copy for 2 Maxis jobs from Mantra & spent quite a fair bit of time organizing things for the Christmas production in the afternoon. Aaah ... this is my kind of day. Rehearsals for the stage bits start this Sunday at 2:00pm. I'm not truly looking forward to it for some reason - I've been feeling lethargic of late and I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. I feel like Bilbo Baggins in Fellowship of the Ring; like butter spread on too much bread. Bilbo, I don't know what you meant by that but I certainly feel like it. Too little butter on too much bread.
The disturbance in my sleep pattern last night is causing me to be slightly woozy. On the other hand it could also be caused the 1 and a half hour nap I took this afternoon to replace the lost hours of sleep last night. Oh well ... dinner with my family coming right up.
Ta!
Sunday, October 24, 2004
Another Day Another Shoot
An arduous day of shooting for this year's Christmas production has come to a close. Nestled in the heart of the city right next to the British High Commission is a small road that takes you to a trio of quaint houses. Following the trail will lead you to a place called The Ark; a place surrounded by green open spaces - a sight rarely seen in Kay-El. That was where we held our shoot today. Twas' productive and much progress has been made. I just hope we can edit everything and put it all together in time. We haven't even started stage rehearsals yet. GOD give me the strength to go on.
This morning I reached Disc 2 of StarOcean III: Till The End of Time. The game has finally lifted off into outer space after hours of exploring some back water planet at the galaxy's edge. My party of intrepid teens are currently exploring a space station being invaded by god-like aliens. GOD-LIKE ALIENS! And they have space dragons! SPACE DRAGONS! Giant wyrms flying in space decimating entire fleets. The galaxy is in peril and its only hope is a 19-year old boy named Fayt. I wonder why the Japanese RPGs always have lead characters who are teens? It's so unlike Western games & fiction in general in which the hero is usually an adult. Do any of you know why?
Utilising a walk-through (I can hear some of you chanting "cheater ... cheater ... cheater" now) I have obtained an item called Orichalcum to upgrade Fayt's trusty sword. The aliens on board the space station are pretty tough. My first battle against them resulted in the death of a party member (not to fear though, Japanese RPGs allow you to resurrect your characters easily via items or resting at an inn). That was decidedly most uncool but it is satisfying to see 4,000 hit-point damage being dished out by my main character. At the rate I'm going I should be able to head into the endgame this week hopefully.
Another day another shoot; another day another battle in the world of Fayt Leingod. Till tomorrow.
An arduous day of shooting for this year's Christmas production has come to a close. Nestled in the heart of the city right next to the British High Commission is a small road that takes you to a trio of quaint houses. Following the trail will lead you to a place called The Ark; a place surrounded by green open spaces - a sight rarely seen in Kay-El. That was where we held our shoot today. Twas' productive and much progress has been made. I just hope we can edit everything and put it all together in time. We haven't even started stage rehearsals yet. GOD give me the strength to go on.
This morning I reached Disc 2 of StarOcean III: Till The End of Time. The game has finally lifted off into outer space after hours of exploring some back water planet at the galaxy's edge. My party of intrepid teens are currently exploring a space station being invaded by god-like aliens. GOD-LIKE ALIENS! And they have space dragons! SPACE DRAGONS! Giant wyrms flying in space decimating entire fleets. The galaxy is in peril and its only hope is a 19-year old boy named Fayt. I wonder why the Japanese RPGs always have lead characters who are teens? It's so unlike Western games & fiction in general in which the hero is usually an adult. Do any of you know why?
Utilising a walk-through (I can hear some of you chanting "cheater ... cheater ... cheater" now) I have obtained an item called Orichalcum to upgrade Fayt's trusty sword. The aliens on board the space station are pretty tough. My first battle against them resulted in the death of a party member (not to fear though, Japanese RPGs allow you to resurrect your characters easily via items or resting at an inn). That was decidedly most uncool but it is satisfying to see 4,000 hit-point damage being dished out by my main character. At the rate I'm going I should be able to head into the endgame this week hopefully.
Another day another shoot; another day another battle in the world of Fayt Leingod. Till tomorrow.
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Halo
I didn't mean the game. I'm talkin' bout HaloScan. I've just set up an account & I sense more efficient commenting power building on this blog.
Power Overwhelming.
I didn't mean the game. I'm talkin' bout HaloScan. I've just set up an account & I sense more efficient commenting power building on this blog.
Power Overwhelming.
Wedding Days and Mondays Always Get Me Down
The title says it all. It's not a Monday today so what does that leave you with? This is the 3rd wedding I've attended this year & boy did I feel out of place there alone. Jamie Sol (my ex-CG leader) had her wedding today at First Baptist. It was a simple affair but Jamie made the whole ceremony beautiful with that radiant look on her face. As the vows were being exchange I could feel just what she was feeling by gazing at her face. It was romantic. It was poetic. But alas it also got me depressed & all the more uncomfortable being me. Sigh ... it's times like this that I wish that I'm not single.
I won't go all Freudian & start psycho analysing myself but it does make me wonder if that special someone is out there somewhere. God hasn't been clear about it & so far I've struck out on every single attempt I've made. Love has just shown me it's sharp edge & boy does it hurt. It's sweet euphoria to be in love but when it's unrequited then prepare to taste pure unadulterated heartache. Is that self-pity I detect?
A glimmer of hope still exists in the recesses of my soul but its light is fading. I feel it giving out with each passing moment. Snuffed out by the dark plague of loneliness that ever so grips me. It's easy to say that God is preparing someone for you & it's easy to bring yourself to believe it but there's this nagging thought that I am lying to myself. I've heard it all before ... preachers always tell the same old tale of marriage being a life-long commitment. It's a relationship in which God has placed the two people together for a purpose. I have my own questions to that. How then do I know for certain who that person is & am I with her because I am lonely? I honestly don't know & right now I don't I think I could love someone after being hurt so much in the past. I feel really tired inside. So very tired. My life is a long dreary road leading nowhere. That's exactly how I feel at times. A lonely soul on a lonely planet. The closest person I know right now is God & thankfully it always helps to talk to Him; intangible though He may be.
So comes an end to my wallow in self-pity. It's time to unstick myself from the mire & get on the wire. Corniness is a gift of mine, when it emerges I generally feel better. Ta!
The title says it all. It's not a Monday today so what does that leave you with? This is the 3rd wedding I've attended this year & boy did I feel out of place there alone. Jamie Sol (my ex-CG leader) had her wedding today at First Baptist. It was a simple affair but Jamie made the whole ceremony beautiful with that radiant look on her face. As the vows were being exchange I could feel just what she was feeling by gazing at her face. It was romantic. It was poetic. But alas it also got me depressed & all the more uncomfortable being me. Sigh ... it's times like this that I wish that I'm not single.
I won't go all Freudian & start psycho analysing myself but it does make me wonder if that special someone is out there somewhere. God hasn't been clear about it & so far I've struck out on every single attempt I've made. Love has just shown me it's sharp edge & boy does it hurt. It's sweet euphoria to be in love but when it's unrequited then prepare to taste pure unadulterated heartache. Is that self-pity I detect?
A glimmer of hope still exists in the recesses of my soul but its light is fading. I feel it giving out with each passing moment. Snuffed out by the dark plague of loneliness that ever so grips me. It's easy to say that God is preparing someone for you & it's easy to bring yourself to believe it but there's this nagging thought that I am lying to myself. I've heard it all before ... preachers always tell the same old tale of marriage being a life-long commitment. It's a relationship in which God has placed the two people together for a purpose. I have my own questions to that. How then do I know for certain who that person is & am I with her because I am lonely? I honestly don't know & right now I don't I think I could love someone after being hurt so much in the past. I feel really tired inside. So very tired. My life is a long dreary road leading nowhere. That's exactly how I feel at times. A lonely soul on a lonely planet. The closest person I know right now is God & thankfully it always helps to talk to Him; intangible though He may be.
So comes an end to my wallow in self-pity. It's time to unstick myself from the mire & get on the wire. Corniness is a gift of mine, when it emerges I generally feel better. Ta!
Thursday, October 21, 2004
Quality Written
Amazed. Yes. Amazed. That IS the state I am in now. A M A Z E D. James (mah boss) pointed me to this blog called Fly or Die and boy can that girl write. Choice words does a BLOG make not just random rambling or prattling. By comparison my writing sucks! I spew out my thoughts and that my friends is creativity times zero. I forget that BLOGs in essence are a form of entertainment. Intellectual entertainment for the zombied masses who up till now have been inundated by MTV & Hollywood fare. Modern society has lost something precious the day the television was invented. Honestly ... how many people actually read nowadays? Sadly I too have succumbed to the temptation of idiot entertainment. It ain't wrong mind you but today as I write this my eyes have been opened & my senses awakened. Time to jumpstart reading in my life but where do I start? That, compadres is the 5 million peso question. Someone, anyone please suggest something to me; fiction preferred.
By the way, if any of you chance upon a magazine called Pinch do pick up a copy. It's free! So all you cheapskates have no excuse to pick one up. My first published article lies within those pages. And YES it's a paid article! I haven't even been paid yet but it was a proud moment to flip through the mag and see my name in print. The article wasn't worth that much monetarily but it's a first in my portfolio of published work. An ego booster indeed.
Whoops! It's 5:41 now and I'm supposed to drop by 1U to purchase some fake eyelashes for a video shoot tonight. I hope the salesgirl doesn't think I'm some sort of cross dressing freak or something. Incidentally my iD is nudging to pick up a copy of Paper Mario since I'm gonna be in 1U anyway. Hmmm ... we'll see how. Guess we'll find out tomorrow or something. Heh!
Wingapo (go watch Pocahontas if you want to know what it means).
Amazed. Yes. Amazed. That IS the state I am in now. A M A Z E D. James (mah boss) pointed me to this blog called Fly or Die and boy can that girl write. Choice words does a BLOG make not just random rambling or prattling. By comparison my writing sucks! I spew out my thoughts and that my friends is creativity times zero. I forget that BLOGs in essence are a form of entertainment. Intellectual entertainment for the zombied masses who up till now have been inundated by MTV & Hollywood fare. Modern society has lost something precious the day the television was invented. Honestly ... how many people actually read nowadays? Sadly I too have succumbed to the temptation of idiot entertainment. It ain't wrong mind you but today as I write this my eyes have been opened & my senses awakened. Time to jumpstart reading in my life but where do I start? That, compadres is the 5 million peso question. Someone, anyone please suggest something to me; fiction preferred.
By the way, if any of you chance upon a magazine called Pinch do pick up a copy. It's free! So all you cheapskates have no excuse to pick one up. My first published article lies within those pages. And YES it's a paid article! I haven't even been paid yet but it was a proud moment to flip through the mag and see my name in print. The article wasn't worth that much monetarily but it's a first in my portfolio of published work. An ego booster indeed.
Whoops! It's 5:41 now and I'm supposed to drop by 1U to purchase some fake eyelashes for a video shoot tonight. I hope the salesgirl doesn't think I'm some sort of cross dressing freak or something. Incidentally my iD is nudging to pick up a copy of Paper Mario since I'm gonna be in 1U anyway. Hmmm ... we'll see how. Guess we'll find out tomorrow or something. Heh!
Wingapo (go watch Pocahontas if you want to know what it means).
Not Addicted After All
Mua ha ha ha ha! Looks like I'm not THAT addicted to blogging after all. It's been almost 2 weeks since my last post and honestly the only reason I'm posting something now is because I've got nothing much to do at the moment. I've been chugging along in life for the past few weeks, trudging through the dreariness that makes up the life of Da Chris.
The past 2 weeks have been filled with quite a fair bit of activity for the Christmas production that I am currently involved in. Being involved feels somewhat trying as I've been at loggerheads somewhat with my best buhd over certain things. The whole production seems rushed & stressful due to the lack of time. If there are any of you DUMC-ians out there reading this give me a call now if you can help out because there is so much to do and so little time. We especially need volunteers who can help out especially in the editing of the video segments for the production.
Spiritually it's been a dry period; a trek through an endless desert that seems to have no end. I stumbled onto an oasis yesterday morning and had a great time being quiet before God. Guess I gotta re-learn how to quiet my thoughts down so that I'll be able to listen to His voice in the turmoil that is my heart & my mind. A myriad collection of things bother me and it's so hard for me to sit down and quell these thoughts. This morning was a reprieve and it feels like today will be a good day because of the time spent with God.
On the gaming side, I visited my regular haunt in 1 Utama on Tuesday night and found to my delight that they had a copy of Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door available there. That game received a monster review from both GameSpot and GameSpy. The biggest obstacle to getting the game is the hefty price tag of RM230.00. Original games are so expensive. Sigh ... Well it's not like I can't afford to get it, I could but a nagging part of my conscience whispers to me that I really should save up my finances for something more important like a notebook. My PC at home is really growing old. The CMOS battery is dead (I could replace it, but I'm too lazy) and the computer takes a day and an age to boot up. Common apps take sometime to load too (of course I was itchified and installed MS Office 2003 this week but it was slow anyway when I was running Office XP).
Oops ... looks like I've digressed somewhat. Back to gaming. I am currently in the midst of playing StarOcean III: Till The End of Time and well it's not the greatest of RPGs but for some reason I feel like I should finish it since I started it already. The real-time combat system ain't as good as Tales of Symphonia which somehow detracts a lot of fun from all the combat that my characters have to do to level up. The story ain't that great; it's standart Japanese RPG fare where main character discovers that he has great power and probably he'd end up saving the world. The game is pseudo sci-fi in a sense that the planets that Fayt (that's the protagonist) ends up crashing on always seem to be fantasy-based worlds. His main weapon is a sword and well there's magic too but it's called "symbology" in the game. It's a shame really as the game does have some interesting concepts. The voice acting is pretty terrible and the script feels like it's been written by a 12-year old. On a positive note the game does have incredible CG cutscenes which plays out here and there. Very pleasing to the eye I must say. Impressive stuff. I suppose it's hard for other games to compete with the Final Fantasy series of games. The production values in the FF series are far more superior but I suppose that's because of the larger budget that goes into making the game; that and the most talented producer from Square Enix probably helms the development of FF.
Hmmm ... it's close to November. Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater is close to release and I hope it meets my expectations. For some reason I've grown to have a fondness for sneaker type games. There have been a fair number that have been released in the past few years; Tenchu, Spy Fiction & Splinter Cell to name a few. But so far none of them really can compare to the Metal Gear series. Splinter Cell was alright but after playing the past 2 games I felt that Sam Fisher's adventures weren't too cohesive. The story and gaming experience felt like it was being strung together rather disjointedly which is a shame really as Sam Fisher is such an uber cool character. Of course it helps that Fisher is voiced by Michael (Jester's dead!) Ironside - one of the coolest militant looking actors in existence.
Keep posted for more ramblings. I sense one coming up very very soon. Heh!
Mua ha ha ha ha! Looks like I'm not THAT addicted to blogging after all. It's been almost 2 weeks since my last post and honestly the only reason I'm posting something now is because I've got nothing much to do at the moment. I've been chugging along in life for the past few weeks, trudging through the dreariness that makes up the life of Da Chris.
The past 2 weeks have been filled with quite a fair bit of activity for the Christmas production that I am currently involved in. Being involved feels somewhat trying as I've been at loggerheads somewhat with my best buhd over certain things. The whole production seems rushed & stressful due to the lack of time. If there are any of you DUMC-ians out there reading this give me a call now if you can help out because there is so much to do and so little time. We especially need volunteers who can help out especially in the editing of the video segments for the production.
Spiritually it's been a dry period; a trek through an endless desert that seems to have no end. I stumbled onto an oasis yesterday morning and had a great time being quiet before God. Guess I gotta re-learn how to quiet my thoughts down so that I'll be able to listen to His voice in the turmoil that is my heart & my mind. A myriad collection of things bother me and it's so hard for me to sit down and quell these thoughts. This morning was a reprieve and it feels like today will be a good day because of the time spent with God.
On the gaming side, I visited my regular haunt in 1 Utama on Tuesday night and found to my delight that they had a copy of Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door available there. That game received a monster review from both GameSpot and GameSpy. The biggest obstacle to getting the game is the hefty price tag of RM230.00. Original games are so expensive. Sigh ... Well it's not like I can't afford to get it, I could but a nagging part of my conscience whispers to me that I really should save up my finances for something more important like a notebook. My PC at home is really growing old. The CMOS battery is dead (I could replace it, but I'm too lazy) and the computer takes a day and an age to boot up. Common apps take sometime to load too (of course I was itchified and installed MS Office 2003 this week but it was slow anyway when I was running Office XP).
Oops ... looks like I've digressed somewhat. Back to gaming. I am currently in the midst of playing StarOcean III: Till The End of Time and well it's not the greatest of RPGs but for some reason I feel like I should finish it since I started it already. The real-time combat system ain't as good as Tales of Symphonia which somehow detracts a lot of fun from all the combat that my characters have to do to level up. The story ain't that great; it's standart Japanese RPG fare where main character discovers that he has great power and probably he'd end up saving the world. The game is pseudo sci-fi in a sense that the planets that Fayt (that's the protagonist) ends up crashing on always seem to be fantasy-based worlds. His main weapon is a sword and well there's magic too but it's called "symbology" in the game. It's a shame really as the game does have some interesting concepts. The voice acting is pretty terrible and the script feels like it's been written by a 12-year old. On a positive note the game does have incredible CG cutscenes which plays out here and there. Very pleasing to the eye I must say. Impressive stuff. I suppose it's hard for other games to compete with the Final Fantasy series of games. The production values in the FF series are far more superior but I suppose that's because of the larger budget that goes into making the game; that and the most talented producer from Square Enix probably helms the development of FF.
Hmmm ... it's close to November. Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater is close to release and I hope it meets my expectations. For some reason I've grown to have a fondness for sneaker type games. There have been a fair number that have been released in the past few years; Tenchu, Spy Fiction & Splinter Cell to name a few. But so far none of them really can compare to the Metal Gear series. Splinter Cell was alright but after playing the past 2 games I felt that Sam Fisher's adventures weren't too cohesive. The story and gaming experience felt like it was being strung together rather disjointedly which is a shame really as Sam Fisher is such an uber cool character. Of course it helps that Fisher is voiced by Michael (Jester's dead!) Ironside - one of the coolest militant looking actors in existence.
Keep posted for more ramblings. I sense one coming up very very soon. Heh!
Thursday, October 07, 2004
BIG BOOMBAD ACCIDENTE !
YES! As you can read in today's post I had an accident today. Twas' a minor one but it has caused aches in the weirdest places. My fingers on my right hand aches and my left arm aches too as well as sections of my body called my leg. Thank God I wasn't hurt at all ... but my poor bike had some damage PLUS I will have to pay to get the guy's (the guy as in the guy i hit) car a small knock up job (knock up as in banging out the dents not getting it pregnant).
It started to rain just as I arrived close to 1U. Was feeling pretty irritated that it rained just as I got in to PJ. Just as I was turning up into Damansara Perdana past the traffic lights I hit this white Proton as I was riding up the hill cos' all the cars stopped suddenly. Sigh ... talk about dumbass accidents. This certainly qualifies as one. I was drenched from the rain and I had an accident! Man ... I was feeling upset about it cos' just before the accident I had a premonition of sorts that something bad was gonna happen. To be honest I was a lil' upset with the big guy up there in heaven for allowing this to happen. I really do get upset by the smallest things which the horned one uses against me a lot. Last Saturday's bad day was a good example of it happening. In hindsight I have much to be thankful for ... I wasn't hurt at all and it that I really am able to thank God for watching over me even though I was in a bad mood as I was riding in the heavy downpour (yes, yes ... I was grumbling in my heart and asking God why oh why couldn't He have held back the rain till I got to the office).
That's life I guess ... God gives us the bad and the good, and we live with it. Hmmm ... maybe it's time to get a car and get an accident in one instead of outside of one. Heh heh!
Excelsior.
YES! As you can read in today's post I had an accident today. Twas' a minor one but it has caused aches in the weirdest places. My fingers on my right hand aches and my left arm aches too as well as sections of my body called my leg. Thank God I wasn't hurt at all ... but my poor bike had some damage PLUS I will have to pay to get the guy's (the guy as in the guy i hit) car a small knock up job (knock up as in banging out the dents not getting it pregnant).
It started to rain just as I arrived close to 1U. Was feeling pretty irritated that it rained just as I got in to PJ. Just as I was turning up into Damansara Perdana past the traffic lights I hit this white Proton as I was riding up the hill cos' all the cars stopped suddenly. Sigh ... talk about dumbass accidents. This certainly qualifies as one. I was drenched from the rain and I had an accident! Man ... I was feeling upset about it cos' just before the accident I had a premonition of sorts that something bad was gonna happen. To be honest I was a lil' upset with the big guy up there in heaven for allowing this to happen. I really do get upset by the smallest things which the horned one uses against me a lot. Last Saturday's bad day was a good example of it happening. In hindsight I have much to be thankful for ... I wasn't hurt at all and it that I really am able to thank God for watching over me even though I was in a bad mood as I was riding in the heavy downpour (yes, yes ... I was grumbling in my heart and asking God why oh why couldn't He have held back the rain till I got to the office).
That's life I guess ... God gives us the bad and the good, and we live with it. Hmmm ... maybe it's time to get a car and get an accident in one instead of outside of one. Heh heh!
Excelsior.
Monday, October 04, 2004
Bad Day
Man!
Blogger has been giving me a lot of problems. I couldn't login properly the whole day and it's been pretty irritating. Since I have some time now before I leave for my 8:30 appointment I shall quickly write something before I leave.
I had a half good and half bad weekend. Saturday turned out to be a pretty crummy day. The morning was pretty OK, read my devotional passage in then watched Saturday morning cartoons! Yes! After that I slept some more as I've been feeling super tired throughout the week. When I got up mom was asking to sweep the floor but I didn't want to cos' I had to go off soon to Children's Church to play guitar for them. Things started going downhill from there. When I got to PJ after an arduous 40 minute ride from Setapak I found that my buhd J-son wasn't around and I couldn't pick up his guitar to use. To cut a long story short I ended up not playing at all so I wandered on over to 1U cos' for some reason I felt really upset. Things didn't get any better when I got home ... I just slept and didn't feel like having anyone around. That didn't happen of course because my mom started nagging about sweeping the floor again which really irritated me then later in the night my dad made a lot of noise about the TV volume (which wasn't that loud by the way). It really got ticked me off because dad does the exact same thing when he watches TV and I don't really complain do I? Of course he was preparing a sermon or something so I guess it's different but the things he said to get me to lower the volume weren't exactly nice. Sigh ... it really felt like a super bad day.
Which got me thinking ... it's always OK for girls to have bad days cos' of PMS and stuff but guys can have bad days too and feel ill-tempered as well. It's SOCIALLY acceptable for a girl to have a bad day but not for a guy!!! I'm sure I'm gonna rile up a lot of discussion by making this statement but I think it's TRUE! Note the lyrics from the song "Bad Day" by Fuel. This is how it (it as in the song) goes:
I had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note that said I’m sorry,
I had a bad day again
She spilled her coffee broke a shoelace
Smeared the lipstick on her face
Slammed the door and said I’m sorry,
I had a bad day again
And she swears there’s nothing wrong
I hear her playing that same old song
She puts me up and puts me on
I had a bad day again
She said I would not understand
She left a note and said I’m sorry
I had a bad day again
So is it socially acceptable for guys to have a bad day too? Don't guys have hormones and other such stuff? Ha ha. Well we don't have PMS but I think we are emotional beings too it's just that we are always expected to be cool and men are supposed to be stoic creatures who don't break down and don't cry. What a load of hogwash ... MEN do have emotions too! We may not always be in touch with our emotions but that doesn't mean we don't hurt and it certainly doesn't mean that we get upset by the smallest things at times.
Oops ... it's 7:31 now. Time for me to get ready to for my meet up. Will tell all of you more about my weekend. Suffice to say Sunday really helped to make it a good weekend - i.e. I caught Resident Evil: Apocalypse and Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow! Yippee!
Till next time. Vaya con dios amigos.
Friday, October 01, 2004
Addicted?
Cripes! I've just been blogging 4 days and already I feel as if I can't live without it. It's pretty amazing to discover people I know personally who Blog as well! I've discovered 2 fellow Bentongites from my home church who blog too!
The web is such a strange and wonderful place where there are familiar faces in familiar places (ha ha ha ... guess where I lifted that last part of that statement from). I'll give ya a hint, it's from a song!
OK ... I'm actually supposed to be coming up with some taglines for a Standee for a client. I've got 3 options so far and I'll need to come up with more because I'm not a very experienced copywriter yet. I usually come up with a number of tagline options so we have a choice of what to present to the client. Bummeroo! But that's the way it is when you are starting something new. Good thing I'm interested in what I'm doing or I'd probably be grumbling all the time. Heh!
Oooo ... it's already October and Resident Evil: Apocalypse is playing already. Plus Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow is on for sneak previews this weekend! I shall be preparing myself to do some spoiler free movie reviews soon!
Laterz!
Syndication On!
I've just activated a syndicated feed on the site. I never realized how handy it was being an ex-web developer until today. Adding stuff to this Blog is so easy and enabling different features makes it a whole lot more fun! Plus I just signed up to Ad Sense by Google so perhaps I'll get some revenue from doing this. Heh heh!
For those of you who don't know what a sitefeed is; look up a search engine by searching for RSS. You should be able to find out more about it. For those of you who are already using RSS readers just add my feed to your list of regular feeds using this URL http://surfgod.blogspot.com/atom.xml or click on the small orange XML logo on the right bar of this page. If you don't yet have a RSS reader; check out Pluck ... it's a very nifty tool that integrates right into Internet Explorer.
Oowah ... I can't believe I just posted a blog so early in the morning. I think I've found a new addiction.
Ciaozers!
Tales of Symphonia
Yes ... Tales of Symphonia for the Nintendo Gamecube. By writing this I have now revealed that I am the proud owner of a silver finished Nintendo Gamecube which many write off because it is not sexy and childish looking. I would have to agree that it does look like a toy but I will have to step up to its defense because the Cube has loads of unique games which the PS2 doesn't have. Also its sad to say that the PS2 also has a load of crap titles that would make hardcore gamers cringe in pain.
Oops! I'm digressing, this is supposed to be a video game review not an exclusive fevered ramble about the PS2 or Gamecube. Ha ha ha ha ha! Yes ... I have officially now entered a state of feverish video game addiction induced rambling. Crud, I can't make a cool acronym out of the letters F, V, G, A and R.
Anywayz, as I was saying I spent a good portion of August & September playing hours upon hours of Tales of Symphonia. It's not your regular turn-based RPG but rather an action based when that uses a simple yet challenging combo system in battles with your enemy. Since I'm on the subject of gameply now, let's talk about it first. The battle system is truly one of the more unique systems I've played with in a console based RPG. In any given battle, you control one character in real-time while the rest of your companions act according to a AI settings that you can tweak. I must say that I wasted lots of time running around the world map beating the snot out of all manner of enemies just to get more gald (also known as money in our world) and also to see if I could perform better combos. It came to a point when I didn't bother advancing the story that much but spent huge chunks of time fighting random battles just for the heck of it. It was addictive and yes it was MINDLESS! My kind of escape from reality.
The plot of the game wasn't that original but it did keep me engrossed till the very end. The characters were very likeable especially the girl-obsessed Zelos whom I found to be extremely entertaining. The best part of the game was that it never took itself too seriously which was a breath of fresh air compared to other RPGs out there in the market. I shall not give away too much about the plot or characters, suffice to say each of the characters are pretty interesting although not too original.
The graphics are nice and the game engine uses a cel-shaded style to represent all the characters in the game. The backgrounds aren't really 3D but its all done up a water-coloured style just like in a cartoon. Not the greatest of graphic engines but then again not the worst I've seen either. At least it didn't put me off while I was playing the game (I'm a sucker for pretty graphics, even if a game has great gameplay it's kinda hard for me to continue playing a game if the graphics suck).
The game has lots of stuff for you to unlock and collect. Everything from skills, items to alternate character costumes; that and a host of mini-games to play. Completists would have a field day with this game should they choose to find all the stuff that the game has hidden in the 2 discs this game comes on.
Overall this game was a fun romp for me. And it certainly gave me a gateway out of reality for a number for a couple of months. I didn't play it straight non-stop all the way to the end but by ending it, it goes to show that this game was pretty fun. It's been officially 2 weeks since I ended the game and I most likely will go through it again a second through in the future just to see how much more stuff I can unlock and whether or not I'll be able to beat my personal best of getting a 103-hit combo. It's 1:36am now and since I'm not that dedicated a blogger I shall end this review now by giving Tales of Symphonia a 8.5 out of 10!
Good night people ... or rather good morning. It's time to hit the sack!
Fun Factor: 8 out of 10
Addictiveness: 8 out of 10
Graphics: 7 out of 10
Overall Grade: 8.5 out of 10
Yes ... Tales of Symphonia for the Nintendo Gamecube. By writing this I have now revealed that I am the proud owner of a silver finished Nintendo Gamecube which many write off because it is not sexy and childish looking. I would have to agree that it does look like a toy but I will have to step up to its defense because the Cube has loads of unique games which the PS2 doesn't have. Also its sad to say that the PS2 also has a load of crap titles that would make hardcore gamers cringe in pain.
Oops! I'm digressing, this is supposed to be a video game review not an exclusive fevered ramble about the PS2 or Gamecube. Ha ha ha ha ha! Yes ... I have officially now entered a state of feverish video game addiction induced rambling. Crud, I can't make a cool acronym out of the letters F, V, G, A and R.
Anywayz, as I was saying I spent a good portion of August & September playing hours upon hours of Tales of Symphonia. It's not your regular turn-based RPG but rather an action based when that uses a simple yet challenging combo system in battles with your enemy. Since I'm on the subject of gameply now, let's talk about it first. The battle system is truly one of the more unique systems I've played with in a console based RPG. In any given battle, you control one character in real-time while the rest of your companions act according to a AI settings that you can tweak. I must say that I wasted lots of time running around the world map beating the snot out of all manner of enemies just to get more gald (also known as money in our world) and also to see if I could perform better combos. It came to a point when I didn't bother advancing the story that much but spent huge chunks of time fighting random battles just for the heck of it. It was addictive and yes it was MINDLESS! My kind of escape from reality.
The plot of the game wasn't that original but it did keep me engrossed till the very end. The characters were very likeable especially the girl-obsessed Zelos whom I found to be extremely entertaining. The best part of the game was that it never took itself too seriously which was a breath of fresh air compared to other RPGs out there in the market. I shall not give away too much about the plot or characters, suffice to say each of the characters are pretty interesting although not too original.
The graphics are nice and the game engine uses a cel-shaded style to represent all the characters in the game. The backgrounds aren't really 3D but its all done up a water-coloured style just like in a cartoon. Not the greatest of graphic engines but then again not the worst I've seen either. At least it didn't put me off while I was playing the game (I'm a sucker for pretty graphics, even if a game has great gameplay it's kinda hard for me to continue playing a game if the graphics suck).
The game has lots of stuff for you to unlock and collect. Everything from skills, items to alternate character costumes; that and a host of mini-games to play. Completists would have a field day with this game should they choose to find all the stuff that the game has hidden in the 2 discs this game comes on.
Overall this game was a fun romp for me. And it certainly gave me a gateway out of reality for a number for a couple of months. I didn't play it straight non-stop all the way to the end but by ending it, it goes to show that this game was pretty fun. It's been officially 2 weeks since I ended the game and I most likely will go through it again a second through in the future just to see how much more stuff I can unlock and whether or not I'll be able to beat my personal best of getting a 103-hit combo. It's 1:36am now and since I'm not that dedicated a blogger I shall end this review now by giving Tales of Symphonia a 8.5 out of 10!
Good night people ... or rather good morning. It's time to hit the sack!
Fun Factor: 8 out of 10
Addictiveness: 8 out of 10
Graphics: 7 out of 10
Overall Grade: 8.5 out of 10
Verbal Diarrhea
Dudes!
That's surfer speak for hello to all my buhds and buhdettes! Ha ha ha! I've just had a pretty long day today and James (my boss) just criticized me for the use of a generic template on this blog! He said this; and I quote ... "How can you use a template for your blog and work in a design firm?". Uh ... those weren't really the exact words but you get the idea. Ha ha! I guess HE is RIGHT ... problem is I am really lazy to pick up Photoshop & Illustrator plus I'm kinda lazy to go looking around for server space to hold images. If I'm not mistaken Blogger doesn't allow uploading of pics. Can anyone out there confirm this for me? I suspect that I may be wrong and it's just my lazy Id giving me an excuse to use this generic template so I can just keep on writing. After working 4 years at Arachnid as a web developer this is like the first time I'm actually purposefully maintaining something on the web that is NOT related to WORK! How strange ... and to think I used to do this for a living (I guess I still do in some ways now, just not full-time anymore).
I've been reading my last few posts and I realised that I'm pretty long winded. Long sentences that seem to go on forever don't make a good read. It seems like I'm trying to make too many points in one sentence!!! That's what happens when you just rattle on without ever having a point to make. If you ever were to read my journal (wouldn't you like to know where I keep it? *wink*) you'd probably wanna choke me the next time you see me cos' of my long windedness. Bwa ha ha ha ha ha! I promise from now on to edit all my posts to ensure the best possible reading experience for all my fellow bloggers out there.
It's pretty cool to discover so many people from DUMC who also Blog and I'm beginning to feel like I'm not the only one out there who can write. Thank God none of you are actually thinking of pursuing a career in writing cos' there'd be far too much competition for me & I'd probably lose out. Or maybe I'd come out on top ... who knows? I won't really know will I? And I don't really want to find out.
Hmmm ... I think it's time for me to review another game. I noticed that no one made any comments about the last game I reviewed so I'm gonna write some more. Perhaps some one from Gamespot or Gamespy will notice and I'll get hired. I'll be in 9th heaven then ... wah, that's like 2 levels above 7th heaven. Which begs the next question I'm gonna raise ... why are there 7 levels in heaven? Who came up with that anyway? I have a feeling this stupid statement is gonna trigger a lot of responses but never mind, I'm gonna make it anyway.
I shall go write a game review now. Coming up Def Jam: Fight For NY for the PS2 or should I review Tales of Symphonia for the Nintendo Gamecube? Hmmm ... choices, choices. What would I do without choices?
Toodles ...
Dudes!
That's surfer speak for hello to all my buhds and buhdettes! Ha ha ha! I've just had a pretty long day today and James (my boss) just criticized me for the use of a generic template on this blog! He said this; and I quote ... "How can you use a template for your blog and work in a design firm?". Uh ... those weren't really the exact words but you get the idea. Ha ha! I guess HE is RIGHT ... problem is I am really lazy to pick up Photoshop & Illustrator plus I'm kinda lazy to go looking around for server space to hold images. If I'm not mistaken Blogger doesn't allow uploading of pics. Can anyone out there confirm this for me? I suspect that I may be wrong and it's just my lazy Id giving me an excuse to use this generic template so I can just keep on writing. After working 4 years at Arachnid as a web developer this is like the first time I'm actually purposefully maintaining something on the web that is NOT related to WORK! How strange ... and to think I used to do this for a living (I guess I still do in some ways now, just not full-time anymore).
I've been reading my last few posts and I realised that I'm pretty long winded. Long sentences that seem to go on forever don't make a good read. It seems like I'm trying to make too many points in one sentence!!! That's what happens when you just rattle on without ever having a point to make. If you ever were to read my journal (wouldn't you like to know where I keep it? *wink*) you'd probably wanna choke me the next time you see me cos' of my long windedness. Bwa ha ha ha ha ha! I promise from now on to edit all my posts to ensure the best possible reading experience for all my fellow bloggers out there.
It's pretty cool to discover so many people from DUMC who also Blog and I'm beginning to feel like I'm not the only one out there who can write. Thank God none of you are actually thinking of pursuing a career in writing cos' there'd be far too much competition for me & I'd probably lose out. Or maybe I'd come out on top ... who knows? I won't really know will I? And I don't really want to find out.
Hmmm ... I think it's time for me to review another game. I noticed that no one made any comments about the last game I reviewed so I'm gonna write some more. Perhaps some one from Gamespot or Gamespy will notice and I'll get hired. I'll be in 9th heaven then ... wah, that's like 2 levels above 7th heaven. Which begs the next question I'm gonna raise ... why are there 7 levels in heaven? Who came up with that anyway? I have a feeling this stupid statement is gonna trigger a lot of responses but never mind, I'm gonna make it anyway.
I shall go write a game review now. Coming up Def Jam: Fight For NY for the PS2 or should I review Tales of Symphonia for the Nintendo Gamecube? Hmmm ... choices, choices. What would I do without choices?
Toodles ...
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Blog Therapy
Whoah ... now that was pretty therapeutic (is that how you spell it? therapeutic?). Ah yes, it is spelled t h e r a p e u t i c ... I can now sleep well tonight knowing that my spelling ability has not yet diminished due to age.
It certainly was fun to write that completely unneeded game review on Demon Stone; personally I don't even know who will read it but I'll keep on doing it anyway. Writing is such a joy but somewhat taxing past time on the brain and the old hands and wrists (the bane of all computer users).
First of all, I guess this would be a good spot to also let everyone know what's happening in my life of late. Hmmm ... Well, the latest news would be that I now have a new housemate in my place in Setapak. I offered to let a friend of mine stay with us (us as in me and my brother Weng Kit) for a couple of months. So last night Timmy Lai Tim Fatt officially joined us as a resident of Prima Setapak. There's a whole load of unpacked stuff sitting in my brother's room now and in a part of the hallway. Hopefully he'll get around to sorting things out soon as my brother isn't too pleased by the mess. Actually I'm a little displeased too but give him a break-lah. He just moved in last night and the poor guy had to sleep in the hall. It'd be cool to have someone else in the house who can actually play video games with me. Contrary to belief, my brother and I don't play that much games together for some reason. Weng Kit's a PC gamer and I am currently a certified 100% console gamer.
As for work, I am now working in my friend's company; Mantra Communications as a copywriter. I come in to the office all the way from Setapak 3 times a week from 2:00 to 6:00pm to help them write whatever it is they need to write. They do mostly below the line stuff (brochures, POP materials, etc). So far work is fun and James (my boss and friend) & I have loads of fun everyday. We joke, we laugh and we talk nonsense quite a lot. Writing doesn't feel like a chore although sometimes it can be taxing to rewrite copy for a client if they dislike what I've written. Other than that I would say I'm getting somewhere in this writing thing. It'd be a dream to be able to write for a gaming magazine. I sent out some applications to PC Gamer Malaysia and GameAxis Unwired; 2 local gaming magazines but alas no reply from them. Sigh ... it'd be pretty awesome if I could get a job like that wouldn't it? I can imagine exquisitely cools scenes in my head where I'm gaming and suddenly my mom's voice would call out "Yuen ... what are you doing?" and my reply would a very smug "Mom ... I'm working!". Mua ha ha ha ha ha ha! That'd be the life. To game as a living.
Besides that I'm open to freelancing for web projects here and there although I must say that I'm not interested in that really. But one must do what one must do ... so grudgingly I will take up whatever web projects that may come my way although I will be very selective about what I take up cos' I don't want to suffer from boredom while working on a project.
When it comes to church, well I am a cell leader now which is scary and I'm still involved with Punctuation Productions (our drama group in church), In fact we're working on our Christmas play now and it's gonna be a mix of video & stage. Nothing new cos' Actor's Studio did it ages ago before and we've done it countless times in some of our productions. I personally feel stage work should just remain that ... stage and not be mixed with video. It kinda detracts from its name ... "stage".
Oops .. it's 6:00pm already and I think it's time for me to leave. Hooray! I now leave this BLOG unattended. It's off to ta pau dinner then off for my meeting with the rest of the Sun Seekers (my subzone in church). See ya later ALLIGATORS!
Whoah ... now that was pretty therapeutic (is that how you spell it? therapeutic?). Ah yes, it is spelled t h e r a p e u t i c ... I can now sleep well tonight knowing that my spelling ability has not yet diminished due to age.
It certainly was fun to write that completely unneeded game review on Demon Stone; personally I don't even know who will read it but I'll keep on doing it anyway. Writing is such a joy but somewhat taxing past time on the brain and the old hands and wrists (the bane of all computer users).
First of all, I guess this would be a good spot to also let everyone know what's happening in my life of late. Hmmm ... Well, the latest news would be that I now have a new housemate in my place in Setapak. I offered to let a friend of mine stay with us (us as in me and my brother Weng Kit) for a couple of months. So last night Timmy Lai Tim Fatt officially joined us as a resident of Prima Setapak. There's a whole load of unpacked stuff sitting in my brother's room now and in a part of the hallway. Hopefully he'll get around to sorting things out soon as my brother isn't too pleased by the mess. Actually I'm a little displeased too but give him a break-lah. He just moved in last night and the poor guy had to sleep in the hall. It'd be cool to have someone else in the house who can actually play video games with me. Contrary to belief, my brother and I don't play that much games together for some reason. Weng Kit's a PC gamer and I am currently a certified 100% console gamer.
As for work, I am now working in my friend's company; Mantra Communications as a copywriter. I come in to the office all the way from Setapak 3 times a week from 2:00 to 6:00pm to help them write whatever it is they need to write. They do mostly below the line stuff (brochures, POP materials, etc). So far work is fun and James (my boss and friend) & I have loads of fun everyday. We joke, we laugh and we talk nonsense quite a lot. Writing doesn't feel like a chore although sometimes it can be taxing to rewrite copy for a client if they dislike what I've written. Other than that I would say I'm getting somewhere in this writing thing. It'd be a dream to be able to write for a gaming magazine. I sent out some applications to PC Gamer Malaysia and GameAxis Unwired; 2 local gaming magazines but alas no reply from them. Sigh ... it'd be pretty awesome if I could get a job like that wouldn't it? I can imagine exquisitely cools scenes in my head where I'm gaming and suddenly my mom's voice would call out "Yuen ... what are you doing?" and my reply would a very smug "Mom ... I'm working!". Mua ha ha ha ha ha ha! That'd be the life. To game as a living.
Besides that I'm open to freelancing for web projects here and there although I must say that I'm not interested in that really. But one must do what one must do ... so grudgingly I will take up whatever web projects that may come my way although I will be very selective about what I take up cos' I don't want to suffer from boredom while working on a project.
When it comes to church, well I am a cell leader now which is scary and I'm still involved with Punctuation Productions (our drama group in church), In fact we're working on our Christmas play now and it's gonna be a mix of video & stage. Nothing new cos' Actor's Studio did it ages ago before and we've done it countless times in some of our productions. I personally feel stage work should just remain that ... stage and not be mixed with video. It kinda detracts from its name ... "stage".
Oops .. it's 6:00pm already and I think it's time for me to leave. Hooray! I now leave this BLOG unattended. It's off to ta pau dinner then off for my meeting with the rest of the Sun Seekers (my subzone in church). See ya later ALLIGATORS!
Forgotten Realms: Demon Stone
I toldja guys I'd be writing about games right? Ha ha ha ha ha! If you aren't interested in games at all then you'd better skip this blog entry.
I picked up Demon Stone for the PS2 sometime last week at my regular gaming haunt in 1 Utama after meeting up with some friends there. I'd been keeping track of the game for a fair bit as the graphics looked sweet! And in that respect I was not disappointed. The graphics are absolutely amazing. In one level as my characters were duking it out with some Slaad (Slaad are some planar beings from another realm), there was a huge red dragon battling one of the villains in the game. The rumbling of the battle in the background plus the on-screen action with my other characters certainly made the the game a somewhat more cinematic experience. I must say that Stormfront Studios have a most excellent game engine which I hope to see used to better effect in other games.
The plot while not the most original certainly feels very well written. Of course one would expect it to be so since R.A. Salvatore, a best-selling Forgotten Realms author with Wizards of the Coast. I read somewhere that he only wrote 1 page worth of plot and dialogue which explains the shortness of the game. I think beat the game in something like 8 or 10 hours; it gets my vote for shortest video game of 2004.
As a game itself, there isn't much to shout about. All I did was mash the same combo over again & again to defeat the scores of enemies that came pouring at me. Although I must say the 3 person party element of the game was pretty unique. Me ... I just stuck to the human warrior and lopped of the heads of all who stood in my way while my companions supported me. I was pretty annoyed towards the end of the game when battling the red dragon boss in the game. On my first try I managed to whittle down its lifebar to 0 but then I found I couldn't kill it. Much to my dismay I got killed and later on had to replay the level multiple times to try to kill it. After much searching on the official forum I discovered that you had to use each character in turn after its lifebar was at 0 to take down the best. That really irritated me and I must say the developers should be maimed a little for programming that into the game.
Demon Stone does allow for some customization to your characters. At the end of every level you complete, you are given points to purchase different skills for each character plus GOLD to buy all kinds of nifty D&D items like +1 swords and the like. I couldn't be bothered with it although I can get pretty engrossed in character customization in most of the games I play. All I did was hit the auto buy option and got the game to just buy whatever it saw fit to add on to my characters which allowed me to plow through the game quickly.
In closing, Demon Stone was a pretty fun romp but I doubt I'll be going back to playing it a second time through. Play it for the eye candy because I really do think it's the best looking PS2 game out there now. To its credit I did end the game (if you looked into my cupboard now you will find tons of unfinished games) so I'd say the game did keep my occupied for a fair bit of time. Overall I'd give my escape from reality in playing this game a 6 out of 10.
Fun Factor: 6 out of 10
Addictiveness: 1 out of 10
Graphics: 10 out of 10
Overall Grade: 6 out of 10
I toldja guys I'd be writing about games right? Ha ha ha ha ha! If you aren't interested in games at all then you'd better skip this blog entry.
I picked up Demon Stone for the PS2 sometime last week at my regular gaming haunt in 1 Utama after meeting up with some friends there. I'd been keeping track of the game for a fair bit as the graphics looked sweet! And in that respect I was not disappointed. The graphics are absolutely amazing. In one level as my characters were duking it out with some Slaad (Slaad are some planar beings from another realm), there was a huge red dragon battling one of the villains in the game. The rumbling of the battle in the background plus the on-screen action with my other characters certainly made the the game a somewhat more cinematic experience. I must say that Stormfront Studios have a most excellent game engine which I hope to see used to better effect in other games.
The plot while not the most original certainly feels very well written. Of course one would expect it to be so since R.A. Salvatore, a best-selling Forgotten Realms author with Wizards of the Coast. I read somewhere that he only wrote 1 page worth of plot and dialogue which explains the shortness of the game. I think beat the game in something like 8 or 10 hours; it gets my vote for shortest video game of 2004.
As a game itself, there isn't much to shout about. All I did was mash the same combo over again & again to defeat the scores of enemies that came pouring at me. Although I must say the 3 person party element of the game was pretty unique. Me ... I just stuck to the human warrior and lopped of the heads of all who stood in my way while my companions supported me. I was pretty annoyed towards the end of the game when battling the red dragon boss in the game. On my first try I managed to whittle down its lifebar to 0 but then I found I couldn't kill it. Much to my dismay I got killed and later on had to replay the level multiple times to try to kill it. After much searching on the official forum I discovered that you had to use each character in turn after its lifebar was at 0 to take down the best. That really irritated me and I must say the developers should be maimed a little for programming that into the game.
Demon Stone does allow for some customization to your characters. At the end of every level you complete, you are given points to purchase different skills for each character plus GOLD to buy all kinds of nifty D&D items like +1 swords and the like. I couldn't be bothered with it although I can get pretty engrossed in character customization in most of the games I play. All I did was hit the auto buy option and got the game to just buy whatever it saw fit to add on to my characters which allowed me to plow through the game quickly.
In closing, Demon Stone was a pretty fun romp but I doubt I'll be going back to playing it a second time through. Play it for the eye candy because I really do think it's the best looking PS2 game out there now. To its credit I did end the game (if you looked into my cupboard now you will find tons of unfinished games) so I'd say the game did keep my occupied for a fair bit of time. Overall I'd give my escape from reality in playing this game a 6 out of 10.
Fun Factor: 6 out of 10
Addictiveness: 1 out of 10
Graphics: 10 out of 10
Overall Grade: 6 out of 10
Epiphany
Oh wow ... I can't believe it's been 2 years since I signed up for this account. Blogging has come a long way since then. Believe it or not, I've not posted anything here since I got this account and since I'm currently pretty bored sitting here at my part-time copywriting job I guess it wouldn't hurt to write something. When I signed up for this I was a web programmer and right now I'm pursuing my dream to write. Talk about evolution or am I actually devolved? Whatever it is; I suppose I'm taking steps in the right direction ... although one might argue that writing programs could be considered a form of writing too. Ha ha!
Pardon my ramblings but I'm just writing whatever comes to my mind at the moment. I have absolutely no point to make here and I have absolutely no reason to write. But I shall write on anyway ...
After much self-analysis over the past 26 years of my life, I have come to the conclusion that I am addicted to escapism. (insert mad laughter here) How have I come to that conclusion some of you may ask? Well ... I think it's because I seem to find life as depicted in novels, comic books, movies and video games to be a heckavu more interesting ride than my own life. By comparison the exploits of a character or group of characters in every single one of these mediums is a whole lot more exciting than our boring mundane lives.
Anywayz, I've decided that this blog shall be dedicated to all my escapism exploits; everything from movies, books, comic books (comic books aren't really books you know?), and my all time obsession right now ... the magical & hypnotic world of video games. If you counted the number of hours I spend reading reviews, previews and gaming; I'd say I spend maybe 10 - 15% of my life losing myself in games.
So check back every once in awhile. I suppose writing is a much better way to spend my time compared to surfing around the same sites. It's a much healthier creative outlet. Since I still have nothing better to do, I'll probably write about some of the games I've finished playing recently.
Peace.
Oh wow ... I can't believe it's been 2 years since I signed up for this account. Blogging has come a long way since then. Believe it or not, I've not posted anything here since I got this account and since I'm currently pretty bored sitting here at my part-time copywriting job I guess it wouldn't hurt to write something. When I signed up for this I was a web programmer and right now I'm pursuing my dream to write. Talk about evolution or am I actually devolved? Whatever it is; I suppose I'm taking steps in the right direction ... although one might argue that writing programs could be considered a form of writing too. Ha ha!
Pardon my ramblings but I'm just writing whatever comes to my mind at the moment. I have absolutely no point to make here and I have absolutely no reason to write. But I shall write on anyway ...
After much self-analysis over the past 26 years of my life, I have come to the conclusion that I am addicted to escapism. (insert mad laughter here) How have I come to that conclusion some of you may ask? Well ... I think it's because I seem to find life as depicted in novels, comic books, movies and video games to be a heckavu more interesting ride than my own life. By comparison the exploits of a character or group of characters in every single one of these mediums is a whole lot more exciting than our boring mundane lives.
Anywayz, I've decided that this blog shall be dedicated to all my escapism exploits; everything from movies, books, comic books (comic books aren't really books you know?), and my all time obsession right now ... the magical & hypnotic world of video games. If you counted the number of hours I spend reading reviews, previews and gaming; I'd say I spend maybe 10 - 15% of my life losing myself in games.
So check back every once in awhile. I suppose writing is a much better way to spend my time compared to surfing around the same sites. It's a much healthier creative outlet. Since I still have nothing better to do, I'll probably write about some of the games I've finished playing recently.
Peace.
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