Losing Control

Turbulence ...

When it rains it pours. It has been a rough few months and many things have happened. I've seen people passing on. I've seen sickness. I've experienced unreciprocated love. I've seen pain. I've felt pain. Life. Life just happened.

If anything, I'm learning more and more each day how to quiet down whenever I'm faced by overwhelming emotions and circumstances. To spend a couple of minutes to cast all my cares an anxiety on The One who is able. Some may call it weakness. Some call it foolishness. Hey ... sometimes I wonder what it is but stiil I choose to believe. And that belief is faith. Go look it up.

We believe we have control of things in our lives but I beg to differ. No matter how much we think we have control, there are a good many things that can go out of control. We can put blood, sweat & tears into our work but at the end of the day all it takes is a bad day for a client or even a minor overlooking of things to throw things out of whack. You can love someone with your whole heart but yet have no guarantee that that person will love you back. You can exercise and eat well but for all you know a genetic defect that comes from generations of you family could set your health back without you even knowing.

Control. It is an illusion. We think we have control in a world that is spinning out of control. There are far too many things out there ... far too many things where there is no control. I suppose that's why I am comforted by the knowledge that I don't need to be in control. That I can trust every situation to Him. I know ... things may not end up the way I would want it to be but the knowledge that He wants what's best for me helps me trust Him some. In time to come I hope to trust Him more. Because in the end there is always Hope. If not now. In time to come.

Here's a lil' somethin' from the Bible that all this struggle we go through is temporary; that there is hope and that in the end all things are made new.

Revelation 21:4
He will wipe every tear from their eyes.
There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain,
for the old order of things has passed away.